Two beautiful poems

This week I have been going back again and again to these two poems. The first one, To My Diary (on a dull day), is by Scottish poet William Soutar, who is considered one of the finest Scot poets ever. This poem is from his collection of poems recorded in his journal, The Diary of a Dying Man, which was published after his death. Here's the poem:

‘TO MY DIARY (on a dull day)

Since verse has power to give a grace
Even to the commonplace
I shall, within a rhyme, declare
The cupboard of my mind is bare
Not only of an underdone
Cutlet of thought; the very bone
Of prosy platitude is gone.
And since for you, my hungry hound,
No meaty morsel can be found;
And since I would not have you own
A master who could proffer none,
I bleed myself to be your drink:
Is not the blood of poets - ink?’

-- William Soutar (The Diary of a Dying Man)

The second one is one I found on Facebook. It is by Oriah. It just caught hold of me and drew me in, and before I knew it, I was drowned and mesmerized. 

Usually, I am not very easily drawn into a poem. I am very careful, and I keep stepping around the edges and resist the emotions that the poem is trying to lure me into, all because I want my own feelings to be the first ones that I experience, and then in the second reading, I am ready to dive in with what was intended. 

Sounds contrived? What can say? Writers are the most discerning readers :) 

Here is the most fluid poetry I have read in a long, long time:

'The Invitation

It doesn’t interest me

what you do for a living.

I want to know

what you ache for

and if you dare to dream

of meeting your heart’s longing.

It doesn’t interest me

how old you are.

I want to know

if you will risk

looking like a fool

for love

for your dream

for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn’t interest me

what planets are

squaring your moon...

I want to know

if you have touched

the centre of your own sorrow

if you have been opened

by life’s betrayals

or have become shrivelled and closed

from fear of further pain.

I want to know

if you can sit with pain

mine or your own

without moving to hide it

or fade it

or fix it.

I want to know

if you can be with joy

mine or your own

if you can dance with wildness

and let the ecstasy fill you

to the tips of your fingers and toes

without cautioning us

to be careful

to be realistic

to remember the limitations

of being human.

It doesn’t interest me

if the story you are telling me

is true.

I want to know if you can

disappoint another

to be true to yourself.

If you can bear

the accusation of betrayal

and not betray your own soul.

If you can be faithless

and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see Beauty

even when it is not pretty

every day.

And if you can source your own life

from its presence.

I want to know

if you can live with failure

yours and mine

and still stand at the edge of the lake

and shout to the silver of the full moon,

“Yes.”

It doesn’t interest me

to know where you live

or how much money you have.

I want to know if you can get up

after the night of grief and despair

weary and bruised to the bone

and do what needs to be done

to feed the children.

It doesn’t interest me

who you know

or how you came to be here.

I want to know if you will stand

in the centre of the fire

with me

and not shrink back.

It doesn’t interest me

where or what or with whom

you have studied.

I want to know

what sustains you

from the inside

when all else falls away.

I want to know

if you can be alone

with yourself

and if you truly like

the company you keep

in the empty moments.'

-- Oriah © Mountain Dreaming (from the book The Invitation)

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What prosperity means to me (Part 2)

So in this post I talked about the prosperity workshop that I attended.

Now I want to share my visions of prosperity. They are a mix of lots of small things and big things. But above all, they are about the feeling of joy, "connectedness" and content that they create. The feeling "being home", and not having the need to go anywhere else to rest.

And this happens, this moment, not in the future.

You never arrive at a destination in the future. It all happens now.

The big things are obvious - friends, family, great work, great house, car, and so on. But how about the small and everyday things? Of course we are grateful for the people in our lives every single day, but we lose sight of this gratefulness in the everyday grind of living and may forget to express active gratitude for all the goodness around us. So how to stay in gratitude and access the state without having to take a step back and look at the big picture.

On a daily basis, I like to take joy in the small things as well, and trust that the bigger things will take care of themselves. This deepens my appreciation for everything - big or small.

I like to think that the small joys are governed by some UnderGods who have these small Angels who are responsible for the little miracles and everyday smiles. They work wirelessly and are very under-appreciated, but they don't care and they keep looking at our lives, looking to find small, tiny gaps through which they can slip us some unexpected joy, bits of laughter, moments of pure ecstasy.

When all these bits and pieces of bliss are taken together or all added up, make our lives seem like one big bag of Happy and Lucky, and life does not seem to be as sad and dreary as we think it is. So it seems like a good thought, doesn't it?

So here's my list of small, everyday joys for each I am eternally grateful:

1. Early mornings

2. My cats

3. Sunsets from my balcony

4. My terrace garden

5. My phone

6. Moon!

7. Oats for breakfast or evening meal

8. This mandala by Anshu

9. This picture courtesy Manisha and Suraj

10. My red shoes

11. Garfield

12. Conversations

13. Books

14. Coffee

15. Wind in my hair!

And trust me, I am just getting started here.

What does your list look like?

What prosperity means to me (Part 1)

I attended this prosperity workshop on 9th October. It was conducted by Manisha, whom I have known for a long time and who has been there as a source of both light and delight for quite some time now.

As someone who has been on the Path for a while, and who has chosen to be a Tarot Reader and Healer, prosperity is something that comes as one of the first areas of life that needs attention.

Now I know to recognise and appreciate my current state of prosperity - I have never experienced any real lack of the essentials in life, I have been in a good environment and with good people always, and family has always been very supportive, even if a little nuts at times.

But somewhere, I have always struggled with the notion that I need to be able to cross a certain, shall we say, milestones(?) or markers in my professional life in order to be able to say out loud that "hey, this is what I do, and I good at it, and I am going to continue doing it." Thankfully, in this workshop, some lingering doubts and non-existent fears of "not being able to keep up with my desires" disappeared. An old, forgotten dream surfaced again, and I know that that is where I am headed.

All the learnings did not happen in that one day; that day I was able to open new doors, close the ones that were no longer functional, and was able to plant the right kind of seeds for my future prosperity. Some insights are coming in even now, and I am sure will continue for the next 3-4 months. Yes, that is how deep this workshop was! :)

So what did I learn in this workshop about prosperity? Here's some insights:

1. Prosperity only happens in the now. I cannot feel prosperous tomorrow. There cannot be a gap in "feeling" - the feeling happens now, which creates the vibrations required to attract the desired prosperity. This is why the rich get richer, and the poorer get poorer. The "feeling" of being rich or poor creates the ground zero for similar feelings to come in and descend.

2. Beliefs can be changed. Whatever does not work can be thrown away and new, more supporting things can be brought in. All you need is the courage to identify and then let go of any damaging belief. Easier said than done, but hey, there is not much choice if you are committed to the change. And that brings me to the third point.

3. Commitment to change. Get committed about what you want and really want it. Old patterns are difficult to let go as they are comfortable, like a security blanket. But if it limiting and no longer serves you, you have to decide to let go and then do so. This one single thing can make all the difference in living a life and living the best life possible - the one that you deserve.

I choose to feel prosperous right now.

I enjoy the better things in life and I am grateful for all that I have and for my ability to enjoy them.

I am grateful for the people I have in my life to share them.

Are you, too?

Count your blessings, touch your loved ones and lovely things frequently with reverence. All that brings joy to you, brings you closer to your dreams.

Commit to your dream.

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What prosperity means to me (Part 2)

Putting an idea into action: why the process is so important

So it has been almost 20 days since my last post! Now of course I have been busy putting up my website and all, but still this is one of my priorities, so I need to show up here more.

Now this does not mean that I did not write anything this past 20 days. I have some posts in draft folder, but nothing published. So this means, essentially I have not posted anything in 20 days. The drafts don't count here. Sure, they count in my writing quota, but because they were not published, they have no life. They are in limbo.

This is not about having something to show - I do not need to prove anything to anyone. This is purely about finishing things that I start and having the commitment and drive to create, shape, and ship. When I get into this habit of following this curve, my creativity is satisfied and I have the ability to put more things "out there". Why? Because that is what I do.

When I write and publish more, the process triggers more inspiration, and more creative thought. The goal is not to be perfect all the time. The goal is to recognize the spark, give it a platform, watch it unfold into something totally unexpected and ultimately allow it to take flight when it is published. I cannot just keep these things within me or put them in draft-folder cage and leave them there. It is my responsibility to ensure that they get their flight. It is their right. The spark need to be put out in the open, in the best way possible for that time, then what happens to it after it comes in contact with air - whether if becomes a big fire, goes out, turns into something else - is its own destiny.

They came from nothing, turn into something and then they expand and sometimes go beyond being just an idea or a group of words. And sometimes they don't. And that's okay. The process is more important. 

Blog Marathon Post 30. Last post of the marathon

Today is the last day of the blog marathon. I am happy, and totally proud of myself for keeping this promise to myself. 

Today I am also in a workshop for balancing my energy. The place where I am, it's beautiful and very soothing. The rain is amazing and is making the entire experience exceptional. The people are all fellow walkers and the space is awesome. 

Here is a pic of the place. I will write more about the workshop later. 

Blog Marathon Post 29. A day well spent

Today I did not have any to-do list or goals set. I did things as and when they were needed. And guess what? At the end of the day, I have accomplished much more than I would on any other task-laden, productivity-driven day.

How did this happen? I feel the following factors were responsible:

1. Focus on the Now
2. One Task at a Time
3. Freedom to be Flexible
4. Trust in myself, life and spontaneity
5. No over-thinking and no planning

Now if I can do this all over again tomorrow :). Wait, was that me planning again? Let me rewind.

Tomorrow is another day. It's not here yet. I will let tomorrow take care of itself, while I take care of now. After all, Today is here, Tomorrow is not. 

Two of my favourite quotes from two of the most quotable authors - Dr Seuss and Thich Nhat Hanh. 

 

Blog Marathon Post 28. Balance

As I prepare to go into Energy Healing Workshop day after tomorrow, all I can focus on is Balance.

My thought are around how to get into balance and what all happens to me when I am not in balance. My feeling is a little all over the place, but would like to find a place to settle. My awareness is focused on finding that edge where serenity meets insanity. It has got to be here somewhere. I can feel it in my bones!

I really wish I find my edge and the key to walking that balance. For today and for always.

Amen.