The paradox descends...

Returning after almost a month to write something worthwhile...

I have discovered, after knowing for a long, long time, that I have all the time in the world to do all the things I want to do (or to postpone them!) and on the other hand time is slipping like sand from my fist and I am not sure if I should hold it even more tightly or just let it all go in one swift movement of opening my fist.

I understand this complimentary opposite things now. Both are true. There is no hurry, but is not much time left either. In fact, no time is left. Only this very moment is available - and there is no hurry to spend it or use it. Can you imagine? I don't even know whom I am addressing!

But I am sure this is it! The key to this quest I am on...to flow and know and yet keep flowing....

Lots of courage and deep faith is required. I am up to the task....Because I am waiting - I have been waiting for a long, long time - I am waiting for a happening...I do wonder when it will manifest, but somehow I am not in hurry, I am relaxed and at the same time I understand that time is running out.

I will not edit this post...Something written in the moment with least interference from my side...

May this flow continue.....

Time trouble

We all always lament the fact that we don’t have enough time to do the things we want to do. We have to first finish doing the things that we HAVE to do and then and only then can we move on to the ones that we would love to do or will enjoy doing.

Does it not sound all topsy-turvy? I mean, just think about it – we are willing to do the unnecessary first, and then do the things that give us joy. After willingly adapting this lifestyle, we crib we are not happy or are not living the way we would like to. Wake up!!! What are you saying?????

I have come to gradually understand that our world is exactly what we want it to be. All of us need to look deep inside and see if they are not inviting the cribbing, the pain and the unhappiness. Misery, I feel, is at tomes comforting. At least we have something to cling on to!!!

If we are all given the choice as well as the resources to do what we want how many of will take the world tour that most of us say we will take? How many of us will go ahead and buy that beautiful house by the sea or mountain that we so admired? How many of us will stop working for money and start the business we always wanted to start?

My guess is we will still live the same lives, keep on doing the same things, will crib about the same things, and have the same diseases, only maybe in more expansive surroundings.

I have now started to realize my own resistance to change. Have taken the first step towards a more authentic living...The paradigm has shifted definitely, even though only a little as of now...Wish me luck.